Still around

All I can say is I am trying...things are in dissaray for me right now. I just feeling and thinking alot that I haven't in a long time. Maybe it is because things have slowed down. I am not sure. The kids are fine and physically I am.

Emotionally is where the problem is. Things are being done to address it. Everything will be ok in time..I am just struggling to do things that aren't for the kids. It is like I can do things for them and get it done...but don't want to do anything else.

Isabella has MRI Monday. Landon has pacemaker clinic. Beyond that we are doing ok. Isabella is eating pudding and drinking great. But still needs feeding pump at night. We need to get her eating something besides pudding. But she is pretty smart.
Landon is coming out more and more. When I look at my children I know that there is a God I am blessed beyond what I will ever know.